I wish punctuation was not so important.

I actually get genuinely pissed off when other people are better than me at things.  Better at derby (lucky bitches), better singers, better than I am at my job, better at hiding (or at least dealing with) their feelings . . . the list is never ending. 

Today is just one of those days when I feel like a total nutcase.  Or more accurately, am outwardly showing my nutcase-like characteristics. 

What if I never get as good as I want to be at roller derby?!  (Well you won't be if you keep worrying about it instead of FOCUSING at practice and learning from those that are willing to teach you.)

What if they don't like me?!  (What if they do!?!?!  You already have too many friends and too little time.)

What if I never have a baby?  (This just sucks.  But Justin's baby is cute enough for now.)

What if I never get any further ahead at work?!  (Take a pill.  No one really enjoys their job all the time.  It's not like this is news.)

Thank you Mother Nature for making me a walking advertisement for Kleenex Tissues and Midol once a month.   

This is getting ridiculous.  I think some of it may be the weather.  Cold really pisses me off from the get-go.  Waking up freezing instantly irritates me.  So it doesn't help that there is not a whole lot I can do to distract myself from, well, myself.  Nothing to do outdoors that doesn't involve frostbite and 4 layers of clothing. 

I have been going to the gym 4 times a week.  That is kind of helping. 

Ick, I am just bugging the shit out of myself, and likely the people around me.  I am not sure what I can do to snap out of this though.  I should start tanning or something.  I need sunshine to grow, for Pete's sake!!

Day six:  Someone you love

Day seven: Someone you miss

I think about you every day.