It seems as if I am just bored with life in general.
Every corner of my mind that I go to offers little to no comfort. I'm trying to make goals, but being a person who prefers instant gratification, goals often end up frustrating me. I cannot recall the last time I felt satisfied with life as a whole. There is always something more that I want.
How do you harness that feeling and turn it into determination? When you work for something that you can't be entirely sure is an option at the time you are finished, how do you keep working for it? Is that based on pure faith and hope? Because, if it is, I lack an essential quality there.
I'll give an example to clarify . . .
There is a certain degree that I want, a job I would absolutely LOVE to have. I am afraid to go back to school for fear no such job we be available in the area when I graduate. I really don't want to leave here, this is home, my family is here.
Oh my word . . .
I think I am having my mid-life crisis.
I always was an early bloomer.
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